Everyone said my heart was too soft.
Tonight, I sat in the car a long time. Thinking who can I bitch to; one who would not judge the arse.
A mutual friend came up in my mind. After my round of venting & ranting, I managed to get the unhappiness out my system. The friend said,"I told you so", then he told me straight in the face that the arse was only using me as a filler. He assured me that I deserve better. He reminded me of the promise I made to him. This time was the last time.
I guess I feel so much better now that it's out of my system. All the crap and junk that I was keeping inside me for a long time cus I wanted to protect the image of the arse in my friends' eyes. To them, he was the prefect boyfriend.
I tried thinking really hard why we are the perfect couple. Other than how our names matched, and the intimacy we both enjoyed (the best, he said), I couldn't think if anything else to convince myself.
The arse said,"If I regret and come back to you, you can ignore me. I deserved it. I have myself to blame..."
I'll live with dignity, and live a better life. Just to watch him regret for his entire life. That he will never find someone who puts him as priority... Even if she does, she won't be able to accept the way he philanders.
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Posting this as a reminder to myself and the girls whose hearts he's gonna break....
It's heartbreaking how I could read him like a book. "Two months", I thought to myself when I received the following messages. It was EXACTLY that.
Told you not to try me...
