hassle NounA prolonged argument! That's what it is. Why can't we just start things afresh? Guess what. I'm just going to ignore you. And I don't want to talk to you about anything regarding our relationship.... Good for you if you are reading this! At least you know why I'm ignoring you. Why is it that every 2 weeks, we have to have a prolong argument over msn on something we've already argued about? Why is it that if I don't meet you, means that I don't have you in my heart? This is becoming a task for me. Like if I don't meet you at least once a week, or not call you once every 2 days, I'm "failing" my task. And disappointing you. Is this what you want? If this is so, then we might as well patch and pray there's a "happily every after". Is that what you meant by making an effort? In the beginning, I thought that I needed time to rethink our r/s. But now, given the things we argued about. And how much I hate (yes, hate) talking about our r/s. I guess maybe I am giving up slowly... If you need a reason, it's because I don't like your thinking, okay? I guess maybe I've changed. I'm really tired. I hate feeling like that. It's like I'm slowly slipping in to depression. Why do I not feel like talking to anyone. Or not wanting to go out? Or why do I feel tired all the time? And not wanting to sleep... I don't want things to become like this. Is it really so difficult? If we can't be lover, and cannot be friends, then I guess we'll be acquaintances. Maybe few years down the road, we'll meet again, fall in love, and then happily ever after. I hate doing this but you're not giving me any choice. My whole life, I imagined meeting my true love, and that I have the prefect r/s. But why is it like that. =( Suddenly, I realised, maybe the problem lies in me... but guess what, you've never told me what's my problem. Maybe you should. Only thing now I know, I'm having commitment phobia.
1. a great deal of trouble
2. a prolonged argument
I'm praying hard that you don't hate me as I click the [PUBLISH POST ] button.
