I've updated 2nd June's post with scans of our neo prints. Please take a look as I painstakingly removed all the dust that I only noticed after enlarging the picture.
Thursday here so quickly. I haven't contact exbf regarding collecting my stuff at his place. Kind of procrastinating. The later it gets, the down-er I feel. =( Unhappy! I need happy drink! Eeee. What if I start crying when I reach his house (like the last time)...
Sad x 92454854 over something that I thought I wanted. Argh! After 20 years alive, I think I finally felt the bitterness over a breakup. Emo-ing again. What if I pretend I forgot? =X Tmr see how la! Guess denial won't make the problem disappear.
ARGH! Now I'm angry with myself over I don't know what. And Dumb dumb had to dampen my mood by not calling me.
I think I should never be left alone. As when I'm alone (like the long train ride home) my mind will wander.
And cause more unhappiness. =( I was feeling feverish earlier on. I was actually hoping I fall real sick so that I can ignore everything for once. But guess what, I'll "recover" after sleeping. I don't want to...
I want go happy place again. This time, I want more time. I've been turning to him every time I'm unhappy. I'm thankful he's there. He's a lot more than you think he is. But you won't understand unless you're me. I hope my friends understand...
*** 04:22 ***
Been wondering... now that Bei (贝) is no longer my Bei, what should I name him in my phonebook? I've NEVER called him by his name. And... do I have to change my email address that has his name in it?? So much work. =( Breaking up is such an hassel.
I'm STARVING! Why can't it be morning already!
