"A broken heart hurts, but its the memories that kill."
It's sad how you think you love the person. Yet at the same time you're not sure about it. You are not sure if you want to be with him because of love, or because you are relying on him. When I was younger, I was a strong believer of "true love". But past relationships taught me otherwise. I've strayed in past relationships. I though I love my (then) bf so much. But slowly, my little heart drift off. Then you start to think, how can all relationships be of true love. Does true love really exist? And is there THE ONE, the perfect one? I thought that when I can read (ex)bf like a book, I can predict what he wants to eat, I know when he's looking at other girls, I know what he's thinking. I thought maybe he's The One. But see what happened. Suddenly, i just freaked out at the though that I might have to face this person my whole life. The same conv repeats. The same routine. Everything! I just snapped.
Every time you step into a relationship, you think that maybe this is the guy that I'm spending the rest of my life with. You wish that you'll spend every second with him. But time wash away all the sweetness. And soon, you want some time apart. Sigh. I don't know what am I talking about la. Just that, suddenly, I feel that my heart is dead. Why do I not miss him anymore? Why do I not have the urge to call/sms him? Is it natural for couples to rely on each other, and love will disappear? Wouldn't it be very sad? Anw, few days ago (ex)bf said that he's hurt, and he can't give me his love now. I know that holding on will cause more unhappiness. But yet, I'm not sure if I'm ready to let go. One thing's for sure, our relationship will never be the same as it was. The ugly "scars" will remain. He'll never forget. He asked about my relationship with xxx. But I didn't share the whole story. The truth hurts, we all know that. And I know that if it's meant to be, it will be. Every thing is fated. But will fate cheat me?
I'm not scared of not loving him now, because I have a whole life time to love.
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I got this from Cheryl's blog.
couple get together,
started from a little crush or admiring, then to a fling, get together.
tell each other how much i love you, how much i need you.
how i will "die" if i dont have you with me...
after 1 year, still together, still in love,
2 years,3year, 4 years later, is everything still the same?
when you say 'i love you', is it the same 'i love you' as said when before you're together?
heard couples breaking up, may feel a "waste" to let go such a long relationship,
but it is the best way out of all unhappiness or unstable-ness?
then, how should you know who is the ONE?
when you are together with the person, you are so sure u are so in love with him and will last for eternity, but in the end,there is still a break up.
if you are being betrayed,are you going to trust again,or rather,try trusting again or let everything go?
