I watched the thriller for 17 Again and I wondered if given a choice, what year do I want to go back to.
Not primary school, as not much regrets then. We were young, and every things seems fun.
Not sec 1 as everything went well then.
No regrets -
Choosing Library as my cca,
Making sisters like Jo, SQ and Yuling,
I studied hard,
Played hard.
Maybe I'll return to sec 2. Or not. I can't decide.
I made friends with Tiff and Huiying.
Got into relationship.
Had fun... I can't rmb what else. I guess sec 2 went well too.
There's nothing particular that I regretted.
I guess I'll go back to sec 3.
By then, I have great friends like Tiff and wing. Jo, SQ and Yuling.
A stable relationship.
The only thing I guess... is that I should have studied harder.
By sec 4, I regretted not putting enough effort in my O levels.
I regretted putting BGR above my friends.
I regretted screwing up my relationship with xxxxx.
I don't know what would I do better if I had the chance to return. I enjoyed the times I spent with the above mentioned people. I won't say that I regret getting in to any relationships so far. Because I really enjoy particularly his company and everything. But I really hated how it ended.
After being attached for most of my life since 14, I think I'm scared of commitments. I become frightened of seeing the same person for a long time. I'm not sure if I'll stay faithful forever. I don't want to get a divorce at the end of everything. Sigh.
Anyway, I think I got out of topic.
So... I changed my mind la. I don't want to go back to the past. I don't even know what I want to change. I might have to go through all the unhappiness all over again!
ps. BF, please don't talk to me about this post as it's the past, and a part of me that I can't share with you.
