After 2 days, I finally managed to think on the brighter side. And I woke up feeling must happier. Until just. But it's okay. I'm still thinking of happy thoughts.

If you're given a choice, would you be -

a. The wife
Sit at home. Take care of kids. Worry that your husband might be having an affair outside, as your husband no longer show that he loves you.

b. The mistress
Other poor girl's husband/bf throwing gifts at you. Shower you with love, sweet talk, roses.... But you know he's not yours. Or that end of the day, he'll return to the housewife at home.

c. The stay-together girlfriend
You have him. You're happy together. But no commitments, meaning he/you can leave any time!

d. The single woman
You're free to date any one!

I want to be 60% a + 40% b.

I want to be the wife because it's the ultimate goal in life.
At the end of the day, every girl wants to settle down, have a family - kids, a loving hubby. But we all know that guys can't face the same woman 24/7. As seen in dramas, and even real life, men have affairs! Even if they say it's for "show". For me, it's a big NO-NO! I will kill my man if he's having an affair. He don't have to sleep with her or any thing. Just know that he's dining with her, or bought her gifts without my knowledge. I'll kill him.

I'll be the mistress because that's when the guy loves you most!
He'll pamper you. Think of you all the time. But when the sparks are gone. Proof. He disappears.
Is it possible for the husband to treat the wife as the mistress?

Being the girlfriend is not a good idea as well.
You have the duty of the wife - without commitments. What if you wake up one day, and he disappear?

I can't be the single woman either.
Because I need to know that end of the day, there is someone there for me. It's a kind of support that family and friends can't provide.

End of the day, I can't share my man. I need his time, his love, his care... everything. If I'm a+b. I'll share him with me. Technically, I'm having whole of him.